I wanted to share some photos from my teacher training. Since Wednesday I've been taking classes with Krishna Kaur, Kia Miller, Hala Khouri, and more! It's been an honor and a definite growing experience.
I was driving one of my mat-mates back to her house after training tonight. We started chatting about the training. I
mentioned how difficult it was for me to do something so concentrated for 5 days since my personality is already so focused and intense. She said she had noticed that about me and that it showed great dedication.
I've been thinking about this more and more...
Because I bring so much of my attention to the projects I do (especially when they involve self-work, which they usually do), it amplifies the process greatly. It drains me out more quickly than others.
I asked myself: Is there something I can do about this?
And I thought: yes! I can see what it's like to get totally drained and be OK with it.
Part of this process is breaking through walls, because, as Krishna says, that's when we really get to grow. When it starts to get really uncomfortable, you're onto something!
This is why I am at once so drawn to and so frightened of kundalini yoga.
It only takes 3-11 minutes of a given breathing exercise to realize that I might flip. I might start crying. I might start feeling the power awaken in my navel. I might "awaken."
I am training myself to go through this fire, so I can reach the point of looking back at it.
When I start teaching incarcerated youth, I'll need that perspective. It will help me to be a clearer and more "awake" human. At the same time, I will be able to hold that space for them. I will be able to be a living example of what I want to teach them.
Phew. It sure is tiring.
But that's what it takes to affirm your own greatness!
May the longtime sun shine upon you and ALL love surround you,